Vision of Beauty

  God gave me the most beautiful vision.  There was a little girl with long brown hair.  She was running in tall grass chasing butterflies and laughing.  I believe it was Jesus standing there watching and laughing with her.  I believe this little girl was Avery.  It brought me to tears, tears of joy and peace.  God let me see my baby and that she's more than okay and happy as could be.

  God knows what our hearts need even when we don't.  Our hearts and minds don't always connect, but He knows what we deeply need.  When I was at the hospital, actually when I woke up that morning, I didn't ask God to come and be with me.  He knew I needed Him there whether I asked Him or not.  I think it's like that a lot because He is our Father and He loves us so much.  He is a Father you can depend on no matter what.  It doesn't matter if you just sinned, He is right there for you.  It doesn't matter if you just lost a loved one, He's right there with you.  It doesn't matter if you're sitting on your bed wondering why you are still here, He's right there with you.  He loves us so much, more than we will ever realize.

  God wants us to trust Him fully with everything we have.  By losing Avery, I committed to trusting Him because I couldn't do anything else.  I was paralyzed with sadness.  I think I said before that prior to this happening, I was just stuck in life going through the motions.  I wanted more from my life, I wanted more with God but I was stuck.  It was inevitable that we were going to lose Avery, but God turned it and used it to open my eyes like never before.  I see my kids and husband differently now.  I see the world around me so differently.  I was placing my trust and focus on the things of this world.  This world is quickly fading and so are the things that we hold onto.  We were created to have our focus on God and Heaven.

  Dr. Caroline Leaf is a neuroscientist.  She does not validate any information unless it lines up with the Bible.  All her research concerning her area of science is sitting on the foundation of God's Word.  She has stated that there is an actual space in our being that was created for God.  Our entire being was created around God being the center.  You want to know why you're so unhappy?  Why nothing you do ever feels good enough?  Why you feel so lonely?  That space where God is supposed to be is filled with things of this world.  I know this is true because I've been there.  If God is not the focus of your life, you are going to be unhappy and unfulfilled until you die.  No if's and's or but's about it, everybody needs God.  You may feel happy for a short time, even satan can deceive you into thinking you're happy, but you're not.

  My priorities are completely different now.  I prayed that God would make good come from this, and He's doing just that.  Losing Avery is changing the person I am into someone even better.  After having my vision of Avery, I have so much peace.  I don't feel like I have that sadness in my heart now.  I know she's an angel that will watch over us until we get up there to see her.  I know she is protected and loved.  She knows nothing but love, joy, and peace.  I'm so thankful for that.  Thank You Lord for giving me a glimpse of my baby.  Thank You for giving me peace in my heart.  Give her hugs and kisses for us and tell her we love her so much!