I Don't Want To Fight
Well today has been a struggle and a half, mostly because I'm trying to get over gaming by myself. This week my power thought is "I can do all I need to do in life through Christ." We are partners with God in life. He can't do our part and we can't do His, but we have to realize that a lot of things we can't do in our own strength especially if we want to succeed. So while we do our part, it's always good to ask God for strength to do it.
Sitting on the couch this morning, I was completely battling things out in my mind. My thoughts, "what is so wrong with playing? You aren't doing anything wrong...maybe not but when I'm thinking about it 24/7 and slacking in real life then it's a problem...just cut back, you're not going to be able to get through life without playing...seriously? you're going to say that to me? That's not helping anything at all right now, you're making it worse!" And on it goes. The thing is, I could've completely cut that battle out altogether if I had woken up on this power thought and asked God to give me strength. It's just like me to do things the hard way.
So why won't I let God help me? Well from my view it's because I feel like God has done so much for me so I have to prove or show Him that I want to do this for Him. In reality it just comes down to pride as much as I hate that word. In reality, I don't have to prove anything to God and I'm just setting myself up to fail anyway. We cannot do this alone, we cannot do life alone. I see so many people on facebook making depressing posts or saying they're fed up with life. I do it too. What we need to realize is we don't need to feel that way because God wants to do the fighting for us. This fight is between God and the devil. That's why God says He'll fight for us. This is all happening in the spiritual realm that we can't see. I think that satan uses us and plays with us like a cat plays with mice because he knows that if we aren't doing anything or being productive, then we aren't doing anything for God. As long as he can hinder us, he's doing his job.
Does that bother you? Being a pawn for the devil. Sitting idly by, fighting inside yourself and not being productive at all? That bothers me a whole lot. That's not what I want in my life. That's not who I know I can be. You have the power in yourself to tell satan to go back to hell and leave you alone. When you start thinking negatively, rebuke satan back to hell. If you have thoughts about anything not of God, change your thinking immediately. It's dangerous territory when you stop focusing on God, you just stepped into the devil's playground.
I mentioned before that in The Shack movie, Mack was sitting in a boat on the lake and the boat started sinking. He was freaking but Jesus kept saying "keep your eyes on me". I love that and I feel like I kept hearing God telling me today, "keep your eyes on me Andria, I'm going to get you through this." My Father loves me and wants the best life for me. He wants to fight for me, and that's great because I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to fight God's battles anymore. I'm so thankful that I don't have to. Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.
Sitting on the couch this morning, I was completely battling things out in my mind. My thoughts, "what is so wrong with playing? You aren't doing anything wrong...maybe not but when I'm thinking about it 24/7 and slacking in real life then it's a problem...just cut back, you're not going to be able to get through life without playing...seriously? you're going to say that to me? That's not helping anything at all right now, you're making it worse!" And on it goes. The thing is, I could've completely cut that battle out altogether if I had woken up on this power thought and asked God to give me strength. It's just like me to do things the hard way.
So why won't I let God help me? Well from my view it's because I feel like God has done so much for me so I have to prove or show Him that I want to do this for Him. In reality it just comes down to pride as much as I hate that word. In reality, I don't have to prove anything to God and I'm just setting myself up to fail anyway. We cannot do this alone, we cannot do life alone. I see so many people on facebook making depressing posts or saying they're fed up with life. I do it too. What we need to realize is we don't need to feel that way because God wants to do the fighting for us. This fight is between God and the devil. That's why God says He'll fight for us. This is all happening in the spiritual realm that we can't see. I think that satan uses us and plays with us like a cat plays with mice because he knows that if we aren't doing anything or being productive, then we aren't doing anything for God. As long as he can hinder us, he's doing his job.
Does that bother you? Being a pawn for the devil. Sitting idly by, fighting inside yourself and not being productive at all? That bothers me a whole lot. That's not what I want in my life. That's not who I know I can be. You have the power in yourself to tell satan to go back to hell and leave you alone. When you start thinking negatively, rebuke satan back to hell. If you have thoughts about anything not of God, change your thinking immediately. It's dangerous territory when you stop focusing on God, you just stepped into the devil's playground.
I mentioned before that in The Shack movie, Mack was sitting in a boat on the lake and the boat started sinking. He was freaking but Jesus kept saying "keep your eyes on me". I love that and I feel like I kept hearing God telling me today, "keep your eyes on me Andria, I'm going to get you through this." My Father loves me and wants the best life for me. He wants to fight for me, and that's great because I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want to fight God's battles anymore. I'm so thankful that I don't have to. Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.
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